Well it's 12 days before surgery and I am a MESS!!! I am sick can't stop throwing up I literally feel like I am hanging on by a thread. Some say it's nerves, anxiety, stress, fear. etc. Honestly I just feel so sick and run down. I feel like my body wants to give out like walking from my desk down the hall to the restroom feels like running a 5k. Dramatic yes I know how it sounds but till your in these shoes don't judge!
My sadness comes in waves and I have no idea of why it's only when my right breast hurts because it's a reminder of what is in there. I am still going to work everyday, thank you to my GOOD friend and neighbor Susan I love her and am so blessed to have her in my life because if not for her I would be in bed right now. My daughter Alice and Boyfriend David have been also AMAZING during this putting up with my break downs along with Jay and Dan my work support. Let me tell you I am lucky to have a job with all my emotional break downs, throwing up at my desk and constant pain and crying an neediness. I can't wait till all this mass is out of my body and that genetic testing is done and I can rest easy. My body needs to heal I am screaming from the inside out and just want to close my eyes and sleep. I have never in all my life felt so tired in all my life and that is the scariest part of all of this.
This is the boob scoop xoxoxoxo
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