Day Before Surgery

Today is the day before my surgery. I am at work wrapping things up. To say I am not scared is an understatement. So many things running through my mind I know everything will be okay, but there is always a worry in the back of my head. My daughter has taken the time off of work to take me to surgery and stay and take care of me along with my mother. I am very fortunate for a supportive family along with my work family as well. So many things on my mind I can't think straight.

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Screaming Inside

Well it's 12 days before surgery and I am a MESS!!! I am sick can't stop throwing up I literally feel like I am hanging on by a thread. Some say it's nerves, anxiety, stress, fear. etc. Honestly I just feel so sick and run down. I feel like my body wants to give out like walking from my desk down the hall to the restroom feels like running a 5k. Dramatic yes I know how it sounds but till your in these shoes don't judge!

My sadness comes in waves and I have no idea of why it's only when my right breast hurts because it's a reminder of what is in there.  I am still going to work everyday, thank you to my GOOD friend and neighbor Susan I love her and am so blessed to have her in my life because if not for her I would be in bed right now. My daughter Alice and Boyfriend David have been also AMAZING during this putting up with my break downs along with Jay and Dan my work support. Let me tell you I am lucky to have a job with all my emotional break downs, throwing up at my desk and constant pain and crying an neediness. I can't wait till all this mass is out of my body and that genetic testing is done and I can rest easy. My body needs to heal I am screaming from the inside out and just want to close my eyes and sleep.  I have never in all my life felt so tired in all my life and that is the scariest part of all of this.

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It's Growing :(

SO last night I decide to check out what all this pain was about. I take off my sports bra and lay down on my bed put my right arm above my head and start feeling and to my surprise me thinking I am not going to feeling anything, because I only have a 4cm mass. Well let me tell you I have a lump now the size of a LARGE EGG in my right breast!!!! Scared confused all those emotions rolling through my mind swearing they missed something well because I worry that's what I do I should be a professional worrier if there is such a thing.


Anyways I emailed my DR at 1:58am LOL  I cried screamed panicked all in the middle of the night. I am sure my neighbors LOVE me right now LOL also my boyfriend tried to console me but when I get to a certain point there is no consoling, you just kinda gotta let me do my freak out mode. Anyways I went to work I am surviving on coffee water and lots of worry LOL and good support from friends and my boyfriend and family. The surgeon called me and gave me a few tips for the egg mass if it continues to grow call back until surgery is still scheduled for Tuesday January 24th. Check in with ultrasound is 8am. Just some calming jams to get me through all of this.


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Surgeon Consult Day

Today I met with the Surgeon who will be removing my non cancerous mass along with my hematoma in my breast. The mass has doubled in size in just a WEEK!!! I am beyond happy this mass is being removed from my body. It is NOT welcomed and needs to leave. The surgeon was wonderful and very understanding. Let me tell you I am in so much pain I can't even describe to you what it feels like but this is no way to live. I will be getting genetic testing since Breast Cancer runs high in my family to see if I have the gene and if I so happen to have that gene I will go back to this surgeon and have a double mastectomy with total reconstruction and implants. This way I will not have the risk of developing breast cancer later on if all my breast tissue is removed. However, that is a different post later in time but this mass removal is going to happen first. I am blessed and thank God every morning, looking at life way different grateful for the little things and not sweating the small stuff.

The surgery scheduler called me and the DATE is set. Surgery date is January 24th 2017, sooner than I expected but no complaints from this little lady. I will be off of work till 2/1/2017 but will need the rest so I can heal. I will keep everyone update. 1/11/2017 Pre-Op calls me to go over some things.

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It's NOT CANCER :)

So last night 1/2/2017 I got the call at 8:53pm the best news ever. The mass is Begin!!! It will be removed. All my emotions are still new, why me how can I be so lucky ??? Trust me this is what I wanted. I am so BLESSED beyond words and I will not be giving up for the ones still fighing this UGLY battle. Even though I don't have cancer it still runs deep in my family and I will be screened and this NASTY Mass will be REMOVED not soon enough :) I will keep all update. God is good and I am one Blessed lady . This is the boob scoop :)

Biopsy Day

https://youtu.be/1wLsPQStLoU

Mammogram Newbie

Mammogram Newbie here. So what is it that I need to know???!!

Me being me I did what I know best!!! I Googled LOL I found out this website pretty helpful. Take a look!!!

http://www.cancer.org/healthy/findcancerearly/examandtestdescriptions/mammogramsandotherbreastimagingprocedures/mammograms-and-other-breast-imaging-procedures-what-to-expect


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